I gave away some power today at lunch. I said too much about my personal life, and I am pretty sure I made some of my friends feel like I have a very sad story. I don't, as a matter of fact I am a very happy person despite my closet sinning.
A few of the co-workers there are older friends who seem to have a pretty good grasp on me, and what I am all about, but the other two there have just recently met me. So here I go, telling them about my debacherous living, and I look up to see a little bit of horror on their faces. I may have crossed the line of too much information.
I like them all, and I felt bad about letting it go there. Plus I am entirely sure that it seemed worse that it all really is. I guess the worst part is that i cant just take it all back. You know that moment when you really wish you could go back in time, swallow your words and pretend it never happened? Yeah I was there.
This is why I need to keep the sinning in the closet, the moment I let any of it out for others to see, I lose my audience and then I really feel judged. Oh well, everything happens for a reason, I will wait around and see what comes of it.
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